तुम जाना ना चाहो दूर हमसे

तुम जाना ना चाहो दूर हमसे
तुम्हें दूर ले जायें हमसे नये रिशते

बेबस मन तुम्हारा मेरी ओर खिंचे
और दोश हमारी नज़र को दिये
मजबूर तुम पलट के चले
हाल भी ना जाना रुक के हमसे
तरसते रहे हम एक शब्द को तुम्हारे

महीने और साल बीतते चले गये
वादे झूठ से सच और फिर से झूठे
आदतें बिगाङने को मना करते
फिर नराज़गी भरे प्यार पे तुम्हारे मरते
रातों को - एक ही चाँद को - दो दिल दो देशों से देखते
और रिश्ता नाज़ुक डोर से जोङे रखते

नज़रों से चहरे ओंझल हुए
खयालों पे भी प्रशन चिन्ह लगे
चाँद है डूबा, पहचान भी भूले
याद रखेंगे हम तुम्हें, कसम से
शिक्वा ना कभी कहेंगे किसी से

काश्, कभी सामना हो तुमसे
पर बोलते रुक जायेंगे घबराके
टोक दे तुम्हें कोइ, नराज़ हो तुमपे
ये चाहेंगे नहीं कि हो हमारी वज़ह से
झुटला देंगे रुकी धङकनें
नीचे नज़र करेंगे, मायुस होके

ना तुम जाना चाहो दूर हमसे
तुम्हें दूर नये रिश्ते ले गये हमसे.

प्यार है तुमसे..

क्या कभी ऐसा होगा कि तुम आओगे?
देते हो मन पे रोज़ दस्तक
क्या कभी पलकों को छू लोगे
गिरते मोती कहेंगे..
हाँ, प्यार है तुमसे

मुख अब शान्त है, लव्ज़ हैं सोये
पर अब भी जो हवा नाम तुम्हारा ले आये
तो गालों पे सिरहन वो ही होने लगे
और झुकी नज़रें कहें..
हाँ, प्यार है तुम्हीं से

रंगों से मन लगाते हुए
ज़ो बैठूँ रंगोली बनाने
उङते रज कण माथे काला टीका लगायें
आयिना भी कह दे..
हाँ, प्यार मेरा याद है तुम्हें

फूल पसंद हैं हमेशा से
खेलती हूँ बागों में उन्हीं से
पन्खुणीयाँ उडके ठहर जायें बालों पे
हवा भी थम जाये..कहे
हाँ, प्यार ना छूटे तुमसे

सावन की बरसात होने लगे
मौसम फिर खशनुमा होने लगे
नाच उठे मेरा मन ऐसे
आसमान से कहने लगे
हाँ..कभी तो मिलोगे - प्यार है तुम्हीं से

अकेले चलती हूँ पर बिन चाह के
बचती हूँ भीड के रूखे स्पर्श से
और इसी भीड में वो स्पर्श हो हौले से
रोम रोम फिर कहने लगे
हाँ, मन में वोहि - प्यार है उन्हीं से.

एहसास प्यार का

अजीब होता है प्यार का जज़्बा, कुछ माँगता नही ना मिले तो
बस दिये जाना चाहता है, अगर कोई लेना ना चाहे तो भी
तुम्हें भूल कर भी भुलाने को जी नही करता
तुम भूल गये हो फिर भी तुम्हारा हाल पूछना लगता है ज़रुरी
तुम्हें भूल कर भी तुम्हारी हँसी आँखों से नहीं जाती
ना अब तुम पलट के मेरी तरफ मुसकुराओगे कभी लेकिन फिर भी
महसूस करती हूँ तुम्हारी पलकें, अपनी पलकें बन्द करके भी
मन में खयाल आते हैं तुम्हारे, सही न लगे फिर भी
बहाने से बोलती हूँ तुम्हारे बारे में, जो बैठती हूँ अजनबी के साथ भी
तुम हो नहीं पास, वो लम्बे दौर बातों के चल न सकेगें कभी
पर सभी बातें याद हैं, छोटी से छोटी भी
ये लिख रही हूँ की भुलाया नहीं जाता पर क्या भूल सकी हूँ आज भी
ये दिन, यही दुख और यह वक़्त जब बने थे ज़िन्दगी उसकी
तब क्या हाथ बढाके सम्भाल सकी थी?
पर फिर भी, बहुत मुश्किल से थामें रखी है डोरी इस प्यार की.

Love - Questionable!

I just noticed history repeat
No, I think I noticed the nature unchanged
I also saw love make it no different
I just realized it all went down the drain.
But this showed me the beauty of her pearls
Not the ones which trickled down her cheeks
The ones which fell uncounted down the bed
She found her being proposed by a young lad
Not that he was the only one who fell to her fancies
But the only one who didn’t fall to her fancies
The unusual coincidence appealed her a lot
The simplicity also promised a lot
But continuing to live a life of misconception
Isn’t what she conceptualized at the start of their relation
The post bonding year passed like hell
But the next one bloomed and rung like bell
The misconception was finally assumed as true
Things didn’t change and again truth gave evidence
It was tough to face-
The choice made between love and freedom
She doesn’t regret the choice ever
But wonders if there could have been anything better
It’s tough to keep all things in heart
With no one to discuss and not knowing where to start
Such depth cannot be unfolded
Let life unfold it
The pain is as it was always
And heart advises her
To have married the one who loved her
And questions her
Of not marrying the one who loved her.

Memorable Moment: A Loving Instance

While I was talking my heart out to a close friend yesterday, I remembered many fond memories of the past. One is so sweet that I really like sharing. One day I visited my cousin and we were taking a walk in the lane. We saw one of her neighbor’s kid crying and his mother was scolding him like anything. My cousin told me that this was a regular feature but I – emotional as always – grew worried. I went over to speak to him, asked him name and gently put my hand over his face. He seemed such a lovely face or so it seemed to me – innocent and crazy :). He kept crying when I first talked to him but then stopped a little and started listening to what I was saying. I tried to be as gentle with him and asked him to shrug his (silly) demands from his mother and tried to draw his attention to other things. I think I chatted with him a little while my cousin kept exchanging words with his mother and then we moved on. I am not sure when did I meet him again. This was long time back say more than 10 years back.

Time passed, I grew up, started working, got married and it was time when my cousin – two years younger to me was about to get married. I went to attend her wedding and then my cousin’s younger sister called me saying someone wanted to meet me like anything. As I walked with her I kept wondering who could it be but could make no guesses. Then I saw him, he had grown up and was in X or XI by then looking mature than what he was when we met. He had not changed and seemed naughty as ever. As he looked at me, he smiled gently. I recognized him instantly and asked him how he was doing and gave him a warm hug. His mother was also present and she told me that he wanted to meet me so much. I was glad that he remembered me so much after such a long gap of 10 years.

His Mom told me that he kept questioning everyone if I had married? When he got a chance to speak, his first statement was “आपने तो कहा था कि मुझसे शादी करोगी, आपने तो शादी कर ली?!”. I was left speechless and then suddenly burst out into laughter. He said it so cutely and blushed a little and then started laughing too. I then remembered faintly that once he constantly asked me if I would marry him and I had jovially said a yes. He was just 8 or 9 years old then as much as I remember and I had cleared school and definitely thought of myself as being a lot elder to him and took it all as fun!! I blushed lightly as he said and laughed aloud alongwith all elders standing with us in the group :):):). I was amazed at the footprint I must have left over his thoughts in that young an age and felt really happy about someone valuing me a lot.

He insisted on meeting my husband and I called him to meet this crazy child. I felt lovingly funny to introduce him to my husband and I said teasingly ‘Meet my ex-boyfriend of childhood, I left such a loving and caring person to marry you’. Even he burst out in laughter and all joining us in the conversation also laughed aloud.
So touching kiddish act from a child.. His mothers used to say that he only listened to me, did what I mentioned even once and inquire about me often.

Love can happen anywhere, for anyone, any number of times and in varied meanings in life. Love is the most sacred feeling on earth. I am so touched with this memorable moment.

खो देना चहती हूँ तुम्हें..

सही है कि तुम चले गये, दूर अब मुझसे हो गये
इतने वक़्त से भी कहाँ करीब थे, पर अब फाँसले सदा के लिए हो गये
बात करने का तुमसे मन नहीं, कोई जवाब तुम्हारे खयाल का देना नहीं
ना तुमसे कोई रिश्ता, ना अब कोई और चाह रही
काश की तुम बीते दिनों से भी मिट जाओ, तुम्हारी यादें इस कोहरे में कहीं गुम जायें
काश कि तुम्हारा नाम मुझे फिर याद न आये, ये याद रहे कि तुम मेरे कोई नहीं
जो हो तुम मेरे कोई नहीं तो फिर भी क्यूं याद करती हूँ ये कह कर कि तुम मेरे 'कोई नही'
चले जाओ तुम मेरे शब्दों से, ख्यालों से, इस वक्ये के बाद तो तुम जा चुके हो मेरे सपनों से भी
नाम लेते ही साँसों में अब भी हलचल सी क्यूँ होती है
क्यूँ किसी बात की आशा अब भी रहती है
हाथों से तुम्हें छिटकना चाहती हूँ फिर भी एहसास छूटता क्यूँ नहीं
चलते हुये गिरती हूँ तो आज भी क्यूँ तुम्हारा हाथ बढा देना याद आता है
ये दिन - यह वाक्या बीता है तो फिर इसी तरह ज़िन्दगी आगे भी बढ जायेगी
तुम्हारा तो पता नहीं, मुझे 'बूढे हो जाने पर ये-वो होगा' - वाली बातें याद आयेगीं
चाहती हूँ इस सबके बाद भी तुमसे कभी मुलाकात ना हो
सामना करने की हिम्मत जो खो बैठी हूँ
सूरत-सीरत, अन्दाज़ और तलफ्फुज़् सब बदल गये हैं
बहुत डर लगता है अपने इस बद्ले हुए रूप से
काफी चीज़े छोड आयीं हूँ पीछे
वो तभी के लिये सही थी
अब तो उन्हें साथ लिये ज़िन्दगी जीना भी कठिन है
खुश रहो तुम सदा, बहुत बडे बनो
ज़िन्दगी का हर मकाम तुम्हें हासिल हो, ये तमन्ना है मेरी
बस तुमसे सामना ना हो फिर कभी, ये ख्वाहिश बाकी रहेगी

फूलों के लम्बे केसरों पर लगे रजकण..

अब मुशकिल है तुम्हे देख पाना, फिर मिलने की आरजू भी नहीँ. एक छोटे से वाक्ये ने कितना कुछ बदल डाला है. लो आज एक दुख से ही चोट को आराम आया है.

Karvachauth

After marriage it is my third karvachauth. Being a girl from Rajasthan, I am very close to colours, festivals, mehndi and traditions. Especially, the little that I can cook for my loved one makes me feel very happy on this day. Mehndi and moon being two important parts of this festival have a attribute in common. Both are associated to aesthetics. Mehndi is such a delicate art form which has been followed as a very sacred custom. There are different ways in which Indian females apply mehndi on each other’s hands.

1. Using matchsticks
2. Using thumb and one finger by making a thin wire – like form out of wet mehndi and applying it on hands
3. Using plastic cones

The most prevalent one these days is using plastic cones.
Nothing more beautiful can be said about moon than the number of songs which talk about the beauty and feelings spun around moon.
Happy Karchauth to all. May your wishes this Karvachauth be fulfilled soon.

A Momentary yet Deep thought

While coming to the office this morning, my car stopped at the red light and as usual the street vendors came rushing to my car window and starting peeping in, showing their items for sale. Books, pens, magazines, old novels and many more little things. Most of the people selling these are small kids and most of the beggars are also small kids. One of the elder kids came to me with books in hand, I got attracted to a book too and then in a split second looked away from him showing no interest in buying it. But one of my glances was enough..enough for him to make a pleading request of buying it and giving a million reasons full of pity.

My eyes suddenly catch hold of a small child's pleading looks holding a Ganeshji's idol in his hand..and a momentary yet deep thought pulls me deep down the waters. In a normal well-to-do family would have been playing around with toys / riding a bicycle..did this child ever feel what childhood was? He grew up so soon and simply skipped the fond feelings we carry of our childhood days..the days full of fun, laughter, toys n dolls..the summery escapades into the trees, the platefull of brunch and mother's worry of us being hungry. I wish god makes earth so prosperous that the basic necessities of life are in abundance. If competition be an indespensible initiator of growth in the universe then let competition be for things like studies, looks and wealth but not on the basic needs like food, clothes and a roof above.

7 Souls and Love of Life

Today is a beautiful day when i wish to recollect a few songs indicating a few memorable moments of my life..among them is a from the movie 'Shabd' - nothing can be as close to reality. A young guy falling in love with a female older than him truly proves age is actually no bar when it comes to love. It is above all social bindings. Love is illogical and gives nothing in defense. People in love simply say 'we love each other' because there is no explanation to love. Between the loved ones, words are not something that is required. The beauty lies in the communication between eyes..eyes which wish to drown into each other and want nothing more..eyes which have fantasies filled in them and hold each other’s hands and move to great heights. Is true love an imagination? Does it really exist? There are many questions which I try seeking answers for and this continues. Do rains affect two lovers equally? Oh yes I can say that since I have felt that myself. Does love always need social boundations? I am not very sure.. love probably does not mean marrying each other always and neither does it mean that after marriage the love goes away. There have been many words written on such topics and I lately read something around this in Times of India – Life. Someone had beautifully crafted the sacred feeling of love into pearl like droplets flowing in his article. He talked about many 7 souls of a person. He also said that it was not necessary that you find everything in the one you first love or marry finally. It is quite possible that the one you marry suits one of the seven souls embedded within you and you might feel love feelings towards people other than the one you married / settled with which may be different and might satisfy different souls in your being. It is nothing like feeling guilty about it said a psychologist because she felt it was natural. I had never read about anything of such kind and felt that it was quite possible to love more than one person in one life and this has been happening across the earth. How complicated can life be and yet full of feelings.


Anyone that you wish to hear and need a copy..lemme know..relive the song again by reading its touching and meaningful lyrics below:

jism to sirf ek bahanaa hain
ruh tak saath sath jaana hain
haath jabse hain hain tera haath mein
phir haath mein zamanaa hain

lo shuru ab chaahaton ka silsila ho raha hain
mit rahi hain duriyan aur faasla kho raha hain
ho rahi hain baat kuch aisi jisme
ho rahi hain baat kuch aisi jisme shabd gum hain, arth matlab gum ho raha hain

lo shuru ab chaahaton ka silsila ho raha hain
mit rahi hain duriyan aur faasla kho raha hain

rut na pehle the kabhi itni jawaan
thoda naya sa lag raha hain yeh jahaan
aayega aur bhi ais hi samaa
aayega aur bhi aisa hi samaa
haan hamesha do dilon ko pyaara sa jo raha hain

lo shuru ab chaahaton ka silsila ho raha hain
mit rahi hain duriyan aur faasla kho raha hain

dil yeh chaahe tutkar chaahoon tumhe
dedo ijaazat tutne ki tum hamein
dil yeh chaahe tutkar chaahoon tumhe
dedo ijaazat tutne ki tum hamein

chunke rakh lo chaahaton ke yeh lamhen
yun sambhalkar thamlo lo pal dekho woh kho raha hain

lo shuru ab chaahaton ka silsila ho raha hain
mit rahi hain duriyan aur faasla kho raha hain
ho rahi hain baat kuch aisi jisme
ho rahi hain baat kuch aisi jisme shabd gum hain, arth matlab gum ho raha hain